Let me tell everyone here
Actually it's
Met a guy
Younger than me (after all I'm an old auntie too 🥲)
Then the first time he asked me out for a walk and dinner
He already took the initiative to hold my hand
It's obvious he has romantic feelings for me
He wants to seriously develop something with me
But I myself
Still don't think I'm ready
First, I don't want to date casually
Second, I'm not young anymore, no time to try this and try that
Third, I don't feel like I want a partner yet
So the time I disappeared
Was spent settling myself
Because I used to get attached way too easily
The kind who would fall completely just from a little kindness
I'm not very unhappy or sad, because when I clearly felt that guy wanted something long-term, I was the one who actively rejected him
The reason I need to settle is to calm myself down
Stop being that girl who gets attached too fast
Because 6 or 7 years ago, because of my ex
I developed anxiety disorder
After the breakup, it took me a long time to rest and recover
Now I'm fine, but sometimes I still can't help worrying and getting anxious
So I don't want that to happen again, I choose to step back first, settle first, protect myself first
It's not like I'll never date again in my life
It's just
That person who can make me take the risk to try again hasn't appeared yet
So I disappeared for this period of time and settled a bit
Really not unhappy or sad at all!! I just want to protect myself 🤣!
Sorry everyone, made some of you worry too 🥲
I'm fine now! I'm back!
Thank you all who read to the end ❣️
Love you 🩵